This is the first of a series of guest posts by fellow renewers-of-the-mind. It’s by my daughter, Jenny, who is a sophomore in college.
Brains, my three siblings excelled beyond belief. Brawns, my older brother stole the show every time.
In my young eyes, I had nothing.
I remember crying my eyes out to my mom, telling her how unfair my life was and how everyone was better than me. My mom would then whip out a sheet of paper and proceed to say, “Tell me everything you’re feeling.” I did. That was easy. BUT then she would say, “Now tell me if this is a lie.”
I was angry. I wanted a pity party! I wanted someone to say, “Oh, Jenny, you aren’t the worst. You are so great at everything. You are better than those other guys.” I didn’t want this new truth journaling stuff. I wanted a good, comforting lie!
Now, eight years later, I’m so glad she didn’t offer the kind of sympathy I so desperately wanted, and instead offered the way to the truth I so desperately needed.
I’ve been truth journaling regularly for probably around four years now, and God has changed my life through it. What was once the thing I hated and dreaded, is now the exact tool I need for God to change my anger into love and my insecurity into compassion.
Growth hasn’t been easy. It’s been terrible. My own battle with anger has taken three years now, and it is still a struggle. But I no longer let it rule my life. I no longer feel like I can’t talk to someone because of something they did or said.
God still comes up beside me as a I write down the things that I’m feeling and says, “Really Jenny? Is that person really a jerk?”
The answer is always no. And the truth helps me see that person from God’s point of view.
Question: If you’ve been renewing your mind for awhile, was it hard to get started? If so, how did you make yourself do it? If you haven’t been able to develop a consistent habit, what is the biggest thing that keeps you from doing it?
P.S. If you would like to do a guest post on your experience with the renewing of the mind, let me know. Click on the About tab at the top for contact information.