Not because I was going to get a chance to grow and serve God. But because I was going to get a chance for some new comments.
I love comments. To me it’s the one perk of blogging. A little excitement in an otherwise dull blogging session. And because I’m an incredible optimist and a little delusional, I was expecting an exciting day. Comments left and right.
By 10:00 I’d received one comment. By now I’m thinking, no one likes this blog. It’s terrible. Why did I choose this subject? I’m going to write for two months to an empty room. People will think I’m such a loser. And you know what? They’re right.
So at 10:01, I decided to renew my mind. I took out my iPod and went through the discontentment questions on the donut app. This is how it went:
Why are you unhappy?
Because I’ve only had x number of page views and one comment.
What do you think will make you happy?
Y number of page views and ten comments.
Will that really make you happy? Why or why not?
No. If I’m trying to fill myself up with comments (which I am), I’ll never get enough comments to satisfy me. I’ll always want more.
Are you able to create the conditions you think will make you happy?
- Yes: If so, do you think God wants you to work on that? Why or why not?
- No: If not, is there anything else you can do to make life better? Explain.
No, I can’t jump out of people’s computers and make them comment (wouldn’t that be nice if we could? Although we’d probably get some bad comments if we did that). But I could get off the computer and do something else that is fun and exciting.
Is God enough to satisfy you, even if you don’t get what you want?
(After some thought.) Yes. (This is the question that always gets me – it reminds me of what life is really about – God. Not page views. Not comments. Not excitement.)
What is one thing you can do to draw closer to Him today?
Let go of my idol and spend some time in the Word.
What is one thing you can do to show love to others today? Be specific.
Visit my neighbor who is housebound. (I ask this question to switch from a self-focus to an others-focus. Try not to say “Go get some ice cream” here!)
Is there anything you need to accept?
Yes, that I might not get any comments today. Or even ever – for the whole series.
Is there anything you need to hold with open hands?
This is where the rubber meets the road. It’s the question that says, “Are you making an idol of blogging, Barb? Are you putting a little too much emphasis on blog comments?” “Yes, God, I am,” I reply. And then I take a time-out to repent and restore my relationship with Him.
Is there anything God wants you to do?
Yes, get up. Get away from the computer and go do something else.
What can you thank God for in this situation?
I thank God for failure. Because I’m obviously not ready (spiritually) for success.
By the end of this session, I’m feeling good again. It doesn’t matter that I haven’t had a lot of comments.
Question: Do you ever get discouraged about the lack of comments or page views on your blog? If so, what do you do get over it? Or if you’re already over it, how did you get over it?
P.S. My kids always accuse me of doing the guilt treatment thing – but this post really wasn’t an attempt to guilt you into making comments!