Hi Everyone, This is the last day of journal entries on blogging, then one summary post, then on to another subject! I hope you haven’t gotten too tired of blogging posts – it seems like I needed to post on it for this long just to work through all my own blogging problems. Anyway, I appreciate the input all of you have had on this subject.
Matthew 29:20-29 Jesus didn’t come to say, “Hey, guys, look at me! I’ve got some really cool sermons – see what you think of this!”
Instead, He came to serve – to lay down His life for others.
The hardest part of writing a blog is opening myself up to the possibility of rejection and condemnation. The cross (Matthew 16:24-26) I need to take up is a willingness to be condemned and ridiculed.
Jesus would say to me: One thing you lack. Go your way and write a blog, writing whatever I tell you to write even if you know people won’t agree with you and even if you suspect you’re not a good writer, and you will have treasure in heaven.” (Mark 10:21)
God didn’t save me just so I could have a cushy life with a cushy ministry. He saved me so I could love His people and serve Him. I can’t love well unless I get down and roll up my sleeves and sacrifice.
Satan: Look at you. You’re a wreck. How can you publish anything?
Barb: Moses couldn’t lead the children out of the Promised Land. Daniel couldn’t fight off the lions. Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego couldn’t save themselves from the fire. I don’t have to be capable. I have a capable God.
God wanted Jonah to speak to the Ninevites because He loved the Ninevites. Jonah said, “No, God, I don’t want to do that. It’s not fair. They don’t deserve it.”
God says to me, “I want you to blog about habits, idols, and emotions because I love the people you’re writing to.”
And I say, “No, God, I don’t want to do that. It’s not fun, and it’s too hard and I’m not good enough. But if you insist, I suppose I could give it a try, but just let me check my e-mails, comments, and stats first to see if it’s worth it.”
I’m saying this to God, the King of the Universe.
I’m getting better. You may not be able to tell that from these journal entries, but I can feel joy creeping in on a regular basis now. My idols are crumbling, and I’m feeling closer to God again. Not all the way there yet, but I’m moving in the right direction.
I’ll write one last post about some of the things I’ve learned over the last six months of intensive journaling on this subject, but today I just want to encourage you.
If you have an idol – or one of those sins that won’t let go – consider making it a renewing of the mind project.
It will be messy (I had no idea how many blogging issues I had until I started journaling about them).
It will be time-consuming (I have three journals filled with entries about blogging and writing).
It will look bad on paper (I’ve spared you the worst of my journal entries.)
And some days it will seem like you’re a mess and you’re making no progress at all.
But eventually the truth will set you free if you persevere.
We can say “this should be easier” all we want, but the truth is, breaking free from sin is never easy.
But then Jesus never said it would be.